I'm having an awful time wondering about where to start again!!
If you've followed my Blog you may of noticed the.
I'm back,
Been a long time,
New start
and
trying a routine and failing posts.
I am going through a huge life learning thing at the moment and part of this has been to give everything up and just be as ill as I feel.
This is an amazing but highly scary place to be.
but in starting this early febuary, I am already in a place now where I am catching up on things I cannot and will not cancel, I am getting help and starting to feel a little in control. Although I feel quite frantic still. I am getting lots of quality me time and can see this working.
I have been in a lot of pain but I can see I so need this.
Giving me this extra time brings me to my Blog and this feeling I have about it. I feel the need to write things in a blog. I have for many years and have tried and failed to consistently keep at it. I had no idea why I had this blog need. At first it was to try an get free things, try and get reviews and just to generally show what I can do and make and if anyone liked it they could see what I was up to but as soon as I started Wendy's Crafts Blog, I knew there was more to this. This led to My life and loves and in between twinned with the need to succeed in business I started other pages and groups.
My life and loves came about from my illness I have. I knew I was ill but also knew I would be better and felt a need to document as much as I could. I have 1/2 done Blog posts galore and photo's of literally everything I have done in the last 6 Years but unfortunetly I am still here ill and have had to now come to the realization I am probably worse than I think or will believe.
This has been such a positive thought though as it has brough me to actually posting this and starting my Blog again but it an even more positive and unharming myself way.
So, I have this extra time, this Blog need is back and what with my self care learning I am not in need of it to be perfect. I am however over thinking how why and what but am on the fast track to just do it!!
Bringing me again to now
My "I'm back" post of 2017
BUT
This time; I don't know when I will return. I really want it to be daily and try to get organised and business like but as I am learning to love myself and stop worrying what others think, I have no stress. Which means I don't put pressure on myself anymore which means I'm here, I'll hopefully be back and soon if I can but if you find this interesting, want to help me on my journey. Please Subscribe, leave me a message or just a like one of my posts. Any little gesture of positivity will keep me going, make my want to post stronger and my need to get it out there quicker. All that helps me on my journey and gets me closer to being happy.
This time; I am doing it with the need to know that if anyone feels the same as I do and I find a way out or at least a way to feel happy and I share this. If I help one person get better quicker than I did then my Blog is worthwhile :D
and that I cannot deny!!
This time; I am doing it and being kinder to myself :) It is my Blog. There is no right or wrong time to post! Whether there is a day, week, month or year gap in the post. This is still my life and loves and what I want to do!!! You may actually help someone, be interesting, make money, find a new friend, connect with old friends, find true love..... or not one person will read this, will like the post, will leave a comment or connect with me but I may still be helping. I am in fact helping already. I am helping myself.
Wow.... Deep..... Rest. xx
Hope to be back soon.
