Day 6!!! :D :D

Quick pop in... late again.
I was hoping to spend time on my Blog today and finish off the post from yesterday but I have been so busy trying to get myself to rest up!!!
                                    YES, really. I have been super tired today after yesterdays amazing day that I just knew I needed a day off but I have found myself tidying, emptying dishwashers (well just the one), Setting up and using my Wii!!!! Designng and printing my planner pages and stickers.
                                    So, so much but also resting up, so I don't crash.
Had another amazing day although I have felt much more tired today and sore!! but my mind feels totally different and it all feels a little easier to push n now.

Anyway. My first Day 6 post :D :D :D

Day 5 and a bit of a post :)

O.k, so it is Day 5 and I am here and feeling a proper post.
I have so much going on in my mind and so much I want to write, I have no idea how this post is going to go. I am just going to type and see what happens.
I am so excited at the moment. I cant remember the last time I felt like this.
I have managed to implement a sort of routine, planner system and it seems to be working!!
I have been told many times to plan things, Write a journal etc but never been able too. I think because in my mind it has to be done a certain way and I am actually unable to achieve the way I want at the moment.
So I expect everyone by now has heard of bullet journaling.... Well in case not. It is huge at the moment. I looked into it a few months ago and it just didn't seem right for me... I didn't really understand it and so in scouring the internet I found this page from themommadiaries

This spoke to me much more than the bullet journal and so I saved it and printed a few out to see how I got on and it was fab. I let go of all my expectations I had of beautiful planners and just worked on getting some kind of routine.

The main thing I wanted to track get a routine for was my water intake. I really feel that getting enough water is my number 1 priority to getting better. I have tried all sorts of things to get better. From Gluten and Dairy free diets to supplements and vitamins. I really feel I have tried everything I possibly can to try and get better and the one thing out of everything is water helps!! So this is my first task. To drink enough each day :) 

I'm not too fussed at the moment about my diet as I have tried so many different detoxes and diets to try and help my fatigue and they never helped and so I am going with a Listen to your body kind of mode and eat what it wants..... being sensible!!

Ha ha, So currently for breakfast I have a chocolate twist :D and a cup of tea. This seems to keep me going and feeling much better

I had tried my own sort of thing a while ago and it worked for a bit but was just not perfect enough for me. I'll try and get a photo :)

I am going to post this now so as I have posted for my first day 5 and will hopefully come back and finish it later as I have lost my mojo and have too much going on at the moment :D

My first Day 4

I'm having some pretty good days this week. I so hope they continue. I am new into planning and have found a page layout I just love. I hope to make an actual proper post about this one day but for now.
This is my first day 4... therefore this is my new routine working :D

Trying to post daily ...

 Just a quickie today. I'm here and I'm good :)
Had a lovely time today. Jackson asked to sleep over last night and it was so lovely having him and not feeling exhausted. I am shattered now as we have been busy playing and tidying but there is a huge difference between tired and exhausted with fatigue. I actually like being tired. Knowing I have done something worth while and resting up. It makes a nice change.
Just going to try and chill for the rest of the day because I deserve it :D :D
Day 3 done :D

Leaf

So, I haven'y mentioned my leaf!! Just really quick cause I want to get this feeling down in words. I saw an ad on FB a few weeks ago for something I had thought up. If I had proper time and energy I so would of patented it!! but alas it was actually out there already... ish. It is called the leaf.
What I wanted was a step/sleep/meditate tracker that wasn't a watch as I can't always wear a watch... plus most of them are ugly. So anyway this item... the leaf came up in my newsfeed and I was like "ahhh, that is just what I neeeed"
                           So I clicked on the link. read up and it was EXACTLY what I needed BUT it was $120 Dollars!!!
Really couldn't afford it but I was feeling really low my finger just literally went through the checkout without my mind and now I am the very happy owner of a new piece of jewellery that actually helps my life amazingly. Hopefully I will get round to detailing this more but here is a link to them, should you want to peruse :D :D

                                                       The Leaf by Bellabeat Websit

How to loose Two stone in Three months and put it back on again in Two weeks!!

Update on my life and loves;
Routine; still not there
Diet; Had an amazing detox, lost 2 stone, didn't appreciate how I was feeling. Fell off the wagon and put 1 1/2 stone back on and feeling like poo now.
Meds; Managed to get off my pain killers, Now detoxing from all other meds. In a bad place pain wise so having to take more pain meds
Positive feelings; all gone
Quick catch up

So in December I was staying away for a few days visiting friends. So I took a book my friend gave me called Medical Medium.

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I have wanted to try and do a bit of reading lately but can never fit it into my day. Going away seemed like the perfect opportunity to read and it was. Once I started reading I couldn't stop. This book was amazing. It has chapters on several different illnesses and has a list of good foods and Supplements that can help "cure" these illnesses.
The guy who wrote the book believes he has a spirit that talks to him and helps diagnose peoples complaints and tells him what they can do to help get better. Now I have tried so many different things to get better,

• Gluten free diet
• Dairy Free diet
• Detoxing
• Juicing
• Medical Medicines
• Herbal Medicines
• Acupuncture
• CBD therepy     

to name a few. So why not this :)

Anything I can do, just to see if it helps, I haven't found a cure yet but I am happy to keep trying and so at this time in my life this book really spoke to me. I couldn't afford everything that was listed in the book for my illness. I was concentrating on 4 main chapters.

1. Chronic Fatigue
2. Fibromyalgia
3. Migraine
4. Adrenal Fatigue

So what I decided to do was try and buy the top 3 suggestions in each category.
As we all know supplements and diets are very expensive but I was determined to do this. So much so, it told me to juice celery every morning and have a shot!!! I hate Celery but to me it made sense if my body needed it and I hated it so wasn't eating it maybe that was what was wrong with me... anyway long story short, I followed this book and did my detox. It was hard!! very hard but I stuck it out for a full 20 days which even took me over Christmas and New Year!! For Christmas dinner I had a plate of roasted vegetables and a tiny slither of Turkey as a treat!!! Yes a treat ha ha no profiteroles for me.
I was determined to do this in the hope that I would find a cure.
I never really noticed anything different apart from the fact that juicing every morning and making a smoothy was really exhausting for someone suffering with chronic fatigue. Having to prepare meals from scratch using only natural organic products and supplements was exhausting and expensive and I never noticed my energy levels changing. In fact if anything I was more exhausted making up my meals but I did it and in the first 3 weeks I lost a stone!!! I felt good for that!!
I carried on dieting but gradually started adding a few different things in along the weeks. Eggs came first. It is amazing how delicious eggs are when you haven't ate them for a month!!
I used to make Pea, Sweetcorn, Turmeric and Sea Salt Omelettes. Sounds bland and disgusting - Looked even worse but coming off of a detox was the best thing ever!!!

I added a bit of Ham in here!! How exciting!!

After a while I started adding meat into my diet and felt a lot stronger. I was going on the rule of if my body fancies it, Let's have it as long as it isn't sugar!!
Soon as I was getting very bored of my diet and so as not to fail I introduced some gravy into my Stew's. This was like Heaven! It did have a little impact on my stomach but the taste was delicious and I found out I could live on this every night for tea and still loose some weight. I lost over 2 stone altogether and then I just seemed to stop loosing, I wasn't eating Cake and Chocolate, I was eating freshly prepared meals and no pre packaged foods. This weighed heavy on my mind. Why suffer and not feel much better, not eat all the foods I craved if I wasn't loosing weight. It really didn't seem fair.
Then May happened!! My birthday and so I allowed myself some Cake and Party food - WRONG DECISION!! I have slowly declined and fell off the wagon massively and since May have nearly put on my Two stone!! I feel huge and lifeless and bloated.
What I am trying to say here is that even though this book didn't cure me. When I was on this clean eating diet and even with the gravy, I didn't see how well I was doing. I was always focussing on the negative as I look back from my bed today I can see how well I had got. Yes I still suffered with fatigue and sometimes it was bad and I would loose a day but now I have just lost 3 all in a row and I believe it is due to my bad eating habits. I so wish I had stuck to my diet as I now have to go through the detox again and it isn't a nice place to be. Anyway although this diet from the book didn't heal me. It was an amazing way to detox and gives you some amazing insight to these different illnesses and although I am not cured I am glad this book came into my life to teach me what I have learnt and so wanted to share that with anyone it may help. Just know, It isn't going to be your magical cure but it may just help you get into a good place to get on with other things like now I am starting a journey with Bowen and going to try out forever living Aloe Gel and the way I am going to detox this time is with the clean 9. Something has to help and I am willing to try anything. If it doesn't I am happy to keep trying, learning and hoping.
I can now see a definite difference in my pain and fatigue whilst dieting. I just didn't realise it at the time!!
I will be trying to document my new journey and hope to loose my weight again and regain my energy I didn't realise I got back!!

My CBDLife Pen trials

So since last time I have very slowly been feeling a bit better but never fully enough to get a normal routine going. I do believe that a daily routine is key to living a happy healthy life but when you keep getting struck down and loosing days here there and everywhere, it is very hard to keep routine going. I feel as if I am constantly chasing time. This week however I have had my first coherent Monday. As I work so hard down my unit on Sunday's (and by hard I mean getting up and staying out for 8 hours) I can quite often lose Monday and Tuesday to sleep and pain. This week however was different. I don't know whether it was because I am on Week 9 of doing this and I am slowly getting used to it or if it was because I have been using this for three days!!!

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I have been for the last few weeks trying to come off of my pain killers. 

 I have also been reading about Marijuana and have been thinking very strongly about using this as an alternative to my medication as I read it has been clinically proven to help depression and pain. I am no longer a smoker and never taken a drug in my life but am seriously contemplating this route. As if it works, it is so worth taking it. I have instead for now found a CBD Vape Pen Kit

 I first found out about this kind of pen from links on  Facebook  and never really believed or understood it and then lately I found a link to the site Medipen but the pen was £49.97 and although if this worked the money would be worth it. I also thought if it doesn't work I am £50 down and couldn't afford that! A couple of days later I saw a link on a Facebook group to CBDLifeThey sell off Amazon and so thought maybe a more trustly way to be able to return if no good and it was also only £24!! and so I ordered :) 

I was quite excited when my package arrived as was so desperate to see if it helped and when I opened the package I did a little ahhh. It looked so nice. Not at all tacky.

I instantly opened the pen up, screwed the top on and had a little puff. I actually thought I would probably have to charge it but being me I charged in and was pleasantly surprised to feel a light taste in my mouth. I then thought it a good idea to take it apart and look for some instructions and do this properly! I was a bit confused not to find any and so then I blustered back in as usual and made it up as I went along. The pen comes with a little usb charger and so I pushed that into my phone charger with the pen attached. The lights on the end went green and the light on the usb stick was red. I didn't quite understand the red light but took the Green light on the end of the pen to mean "go" and so  I rescrewed it onto the pen and took a few more puffs. I didn't feel no greatness and was highly anxious about what I was doing but I do think I felt a kind of relax come over me. Not knowing if it was in my mind or not I put myself to work to try and find out if what I was doing was right. It was quite hard! There does not seem to be any clear instructions in English on how to use a Vape Pen. The problem I was having was that when I puffed on it, It just didn't feel like I thought it would. It seemed very weak and I was expecting to feel it in my throat but as I was new to this I really didn't have a clue. I just took what I was doing as right, messaged the company and continued using it in this way as and when I felt I needed it and again, I do think it was doing something. The more I was getting used to it, the longer puffs I was taking and could then start feeling something in my throat. This felt better.

 I then that evening put the pen on charge for a bit. The lights still the same.

The next morning was Sunday and this in my Unit day. I think the red light of the charger went out at this point and so I believed it to then be fully charged. I took it with me to my unit and was puffing on it all day. In fact I think I got a bit overly used to it and puffed a bit too much. I stayed happy and energised all day. Right up until the last hour and I really think the pen helped me. That last hour though, It didn't seem to do anything. I had had a big meal and never took it with me and then drove home and couldn't stay awake. I did however sleep like a Baby until later that night. 

Then to top all that off, I managed to wake on Monday!! It was hard making myself get up but again a few more puffs and I seemed to do it and actually had a very productive day.

It is now Tuesday and although I have been feeling very lethargic all day, (I haven't puffed so much either) I did manage to get myself out just for a little drive up the road and to the Shop. So for me, two days this week being able to do just a few things is amazing. Not sure if it is due to the pen but I don't really care. I am happy to keep trying and see if it will help me with my pain and fatigue. Evenings are still hard, I have just recently seen insomnia return. Having had an awful bout of this back a few years ago. I was so grateful when my sleeping patterns got back to normal. Unfortunately the pen doesn't seem to help me at all with this, I get jittery legs and just can not get back to sleep. Chocolate is helping a little bit though :) I think while I am reducing my meds  (I am currently writing a Blog post on about this)I will just have to do whatever I can to get by. I just ignore the chocolate intake (due to medical purposes) When dieting :) 

The only down size to this pen is this;

I'm nearly out :(

This was the pen kit which came was filled with 25mg of Mint eliquid. I think the mg states the strength of the oil as you can get different strengths. The company says on a leaflet that this strength is standard. For those that like to vape a lot. The pen was half filled horizontally of oil and now all I have is this. I would ideally next time go for something a bit stronger like the 500mg liquid which states is a mid strength. For those who don't wish to vape as much as then I don't think I will have to pull so hard on the pen and also not do it so much..... hopefully. You can also get this in 1000mg which they say is High Strength - Giving you immediate effects with having to vape as little as possible.

The company also do Oils and a Paste which I will hopefully be looking into. 

This review was all off my own back, I paid for my pen and decided to write about it, *there are affiliate links in this post though*. I did however contact the company to ask my many questions I had on receiving my pen. I emailed them through their website on Saturday and received a reply on Monday. I was very impressed with the quick reply and how detailed and helpful it was. I have now asked them if they wanted to send me anything else to review. So fingers crossed there will be more to come. I will definitely be writing more about my pen journey :) 

For anyone interested in the answers I got I will copy the answer below for you as it is really good to know if like me you have a few anxieties about using something like this.

I said there were no instructions, how do I use this

CBDLife's reply;

Screw together and draw from the mouth piece for 2-4 seconds and inhale. Do 

this 2-3 times or when you feel the desired effect

I asked if the crackling noise I could hear was normal;

CBDlife's reply;

The crackling noise is 

normal yes, same sound happens on all e cigarettes

I asked How often should I vape?

CBDlife's reply;

We do not have any 

specific recommendations on how many times a day to do this, that is 
entirely up to you.

I asked if the empty chamber should be filling with condensation?

CBDLife's reply;

The chamber with the condensation is where the vapour is drawn from the 

atomiser, that is completely normal yes.

I asked about charging

CBDLife's reply;

For charging, the LED will be red when charging it taking place and green 

when complete. The LEDs at the end on the pen will light up when you draw 
from it and also when charging. When the battery is flat the LEDs will flash 
to notify you of this.

I asked how to refill my pen when empty

CBDLife's reply;

I will get back to you will our full instructions once complete (for 

refilling etc). Let me know if you need any more assistance

So I was really happy with my answers, It kept me quiet for a while ha ha and the longer I have my pen then more normal it feels. I will continue to use it and let you know how I get on with it :) Let me know if you use one and how you get on with it.
Wendy. xx